Monday, December 22, 2008
crazy ass shit's been happening to me i hate it and i can't control stuff that i wish so bad that i could. me and Zack were supposed to hang today but look what didn't happen. i miss Kacie like a twin she's my best friend. she's been through all my shit and stuck behind me through it all. i'd take a bullet for that chick, so fuck with her and runn buddy because you just met your worst enemy. life sucks rite now. the only thing holding me on is getting to see my grandma's dog max. you know the quote sometimes teddy bears are all you got. well max is all i got once in a blue moon and now that he's getting old idk what i'll do so who evers got the patients and love of reading all the way to this please leave me a mesg i'll be greatly apreciative. peace and love
Sunday, December 21, 2008
haven't been on in awhile. Zack and me are going out finally:] he asked me out last Wednesday it was cool i had a dream about him last night. im texting his phone on my computer and he said he dreamt about me too it was funny:] i love him and im so happy that we are going out again:]]]]
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Today is pretty boring so far probably will be till tomorrow :] my mom has us tomorrow we are going to the movies at sunrise. we are going to nick and norah's. that should be funn:] i want Zack to go with us but he probably wont or mom would say no. i got my braces tightened today so im not a happy camper. i wishh i could get them off but that wont happen soon. i want to get my earr pierced on the top and a second hole but thats outta the question.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Zackery
do you even think of me? i cant tell anymore. i wish i could but the energy your giving doesn't seem like you do the way you used to. i miss you constantly. think about you all the time. its sad that i think about you all the time and I'm not on your mind at all. i don't know why we aren't the same, we could talk on the phone for hours on end. but now we are on the phone but you don't listen to me and give one word answers anytime i try to start a conversation. what hurts the most is when people ask about us and if we are going out i say no but in my head i scream at the top of my lungs" i wish."now all you talk about is why I'm not going out with anyone at my school. but what you don't get is none of them are YOU that's why. i can't explain it anymore or stress how much i miss you . i miss us, what happened to watching movies on your bed our hands intertwined and you making me laugh when all the scary parts of the movie come on and i bury my head in your shoulder, that's what i miss and the way you make me laugh like no one else. its crazy all the inside jokes we have and all the flashbacks that i can't get outta my head.
turkey day :)
ugh we ended up getting a turkey breast. i hate turkey if you didn't know. why can't the meat of the day be 
:] that tastes so goood lol i love chicken:] i was going to my grandmas but she got sick so we are staying home for thanksgiving. hopefully we at least get go out for black friday if my dad doesn't try to control that too. like he does everything else. dont know what else to say for rite now so i'll be later tonite to tell the rest of my day. dinner was good we had turkey, olives, potatos, hard boiled eggs, eww eggs
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
last day alone at home:]
well today sucked. i didn't do anything. yay i don't have to be alone tomorrow. hopefully. dad's off, the daycare is probably closed. so i can be with the boys tomorrow:] uh i texted Kacie today that was fun and we talked. i watched my favorite shows too One on one, Degrassi ;] they are so awesome. can't wait to see nick and Norah's infinite play list this weekend hopefully, that should be fun its rating is a b+ on yahoo so it should be pretty good. i didn't go anywhere for 3 days and it feels like a long time. but if i could choose to go any where i would go to the mall with friends or hang out with Kacie. haven't seen her in ages. i really miss Zackery, his happiness is all that matters though, so if he's happy this way then I'll just have to learn to adjust. it's been a few months since our breakup and i miss him truck loads. it blows as he would say. i really liked him. i CAN honestly say i never liked anyone like i liked him. i felt like i was flying when he was with me and i felt like a jet pack when he looked at me. like i was in the air really high. it was funny and AMAZING the greatest feeling in the world i just wish that he would give me another chance. maybe he will or he won't i guess I'll just have to see :]
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
pictures
Gawd. Today sucks so far. i miss Zack like crazy, kacie like she's my twin, i am bored to death. i want to be with both of them badly. it's killing me. i want life to be like it was in kindergarden again where all you have to worry about is what you have in your lunch. those were the good old days, friends weren't back stabbing bioches, parents let you have play dates with the little boy next door and didn't have to worry what was going on.
